ENIGMA OF KNOWING*

Stripping bare my tender soul

from my deep centre

seemed so very easy,

for out of furlorn involuntary thoughts

was born a pampered passion --

A passion that aspired

to give you my ALL,

my childlike honesty,

the beauty of my innocence,

the joy of giving the purest,

                                       my very Being !

Stripping bare my tender soul

turned out to be so-so painful

like an internal infernal pain

now on fire,

for all that time that I was

peeling my external layers

one by one,

little did I know

that you were really not interested

in knowing

         the unconditioned tender me.

Now there is the silent moan,

heavyness in the heart,

awareness of it all ...

beyond self-disintegration ...

To what avail ?

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                                         -- Vijay Nikore

* Enigma of knowing what is best left unknown

(original and unpublished)